how to be strong

step one: don’t cry.
you know the tears you’ve been holding back
for minutes, hours, days, weeks, months?
yeah. keep holding them back.
crying is a sign of weakness.
only babies cry.
you can’t cry.

step two: don’t let it get to you.
sticks and stones may break your bones,
but words will never hurt you.
never.
words don’t hurt. they’re just a scattering of letters,
harmless,
meaningless,
painless.
they won’t hurt you.
so don’t let them.

step three: hide it all.
strong people never feel any emotions.
strong people hide it all,
bury the hurt away
behind layers of sadness
and sadness
and sadness.
take the shovel,
dig a hole,
and bury all the hurt away.
never show any of your emotions.

guess what? you’re strong now.

but are you really?


Author’s Note: This is sort of a mockery/satire poem, mocking how society views being strong today. No, that is NOT the way to go about being strong. If you are struggling, please talk to someone and get help. Don’t keep it all in. Don’t hide your tears, your pain. Don’t think words don’t hurt, because they do. Believe me, I know. I wish you the best of luck ❤

~sky~

Rock Bottom

I’ve hit rock bottom a lot — to many times to count — in the past year. During those times, I feel hopeless, like I can never get up. Like I’ll be trapped down there, forever, drowning in lies and misery.

But every time, someone comes along or something happens to remind me that now that I’ve hit the bottom, the only way to go is up. You just have to take that first step and start climbing. Maybe you’ll slip down and fall again. I know I have. But that doesn’t mean you can’t make it out. Because you will.

Just wanted to share that with you all in case you need it. ❤

~sky~

Damaged

My heart is broken,

damaged beyond repair,

yet you still throw it into the shredder

as if you don’t care.

Why?

An “I miss you” letter for ______

Hi ______. I miss you, I know I literally see you every day/every other day, I know you sit so close to me in English, yet you feel so, so far away.

Did you see through my lie today, when you asked how I was doing, and I said “Pretty good?”

I’m sorry about lying, I wish I could tell you the truth, but I can’t… you can be right next to me and it will still feel like you are a thousand miles away.

Why does it have to be this way?

I know you’re busy, and I know I shouldn’t push you away like I do sometimes…

But. I’ve already told you so much, and it’s so hard to start over with someone else.

So please. I don’t want to ask for much. I know I shouldn’t text you so often, but. I need it sometimes. I need to talk sometimes. So please don’t push me away. Please still be here for me. Please still be one of my best friends.

Or at least, please still keep in touch.

I miss you so much.

~sky~

 

Death

Sometimes it hits me randomly how short life is, and today is one of those days.

I don’t want to leave this world without saying my thank yous, I love yous, I’m sorrys, I’ll miss yous, goodbyes.

I don’t want to leave this world without hugging my family and friends for the last time, or without making amends. I don’t want to leave hating anyone, or anyone else hating me.

We could just die suddenly, you know? I could just be gone. Just like that. I don’t want it to happen, but it could.

Idk what to even think now. I think my brain is just exhausted and needs a break.

~sky~

Begging

Keep that smile on your face, please

I don’t want you to be sad

I want you to be here with me, forever

Keep that smile on your face, please

Be happy, be happy, you deserve it

Don’t frown don’t drown be happy, please

I need you to be happy

I need you to be strong

I need you to keep going on

Don’t frown don’t drown be happy, please

Keep that smile on your face, please

Or else I’ll break down, too

with you

I will not deny it

I will not deny it.
It’s not easy waking up
knowing that today is another day
of faked smiles and happiness.

I will not deny it.
It’s not easy trying to push back
the tears I don’t want to fall,
the thoughts I don’t want to think,
the emotions I don’t want to feel.

I will not deny it.
It’s not easy to remember
that this trial isn’t forever,
that this too shall pass,
that in the end, all will be okay.

I will not deny it.
It’s hard to go on sometimes.

But I will not deny it,
that I will make it through
like always.

Fire

I just found out there was a fire at my grandparent’s apartment today. It was small and they’re all okay but idk, I just want to cry, cry, cry.

I’m sorry this isn’t a poem or something but I have a lot of things going on, finals are next week, everything is all over the place, I’m all over the place, and things are just hard. I’ll get through this, I know, but right now, it’s tough, and I’m trying, but it’s tough.

~sky~

I don’t hate you, I promise //I’m sorry

I don’t hate you, I promise.
Words just fly out my mouth sometimes
without me thinking about it.
I’m sorry.

I don’t hate you, I promise.
I just don’t feel like talking sometimes
so if I seem to ignore you,
I’m sorry.

I don’t hate you, I promise.
I just don’t feel like opening up sometimes,
letting the real me show.
It makes me feel so vulnerable.
I’m sorry.

I don’t hate you, I promise.
I’m just a terrible person sometimes
and I wish I could be better.
I’m sorry.

It’s not you, it’s me,
and I promise, I don’t hate you.
I should try to be better.
I should be better.
But I’m not.
I’m sorry.